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-Yes, I do accept these kinds of things. I prefer to be asked outright and given any details up front before I decide to accept. If you have a request, please submit it to me with any detail and I'll let you know. Be patient with me, please!


Blood Type: O+
Sign: Scorpio
Height: 169.5 cm
Eyes: Blue
Contacts or Glasses: Not yet. Here's hoping I can avoid them.

And I finally made a contact email separate from my personal!


Current Residence: United States
deviantWEAR sizing preference: Big enough to swim in
Print preference: Glossy
Favourite genre of music: Alternative...but I like a variety.
Favourite photographer: Squid
Operating System: Windows 7...Vista died.
MP3 player of choice: I dislike them.
Wallpaper of choice: Artist Wallpapers; realistic or anime--it doesn't matter.


Sorry, but I DO NOT use:

Facebook, Tumblr, Skype, Google+

Also, I currently do not use any Instant Messenger. I make exceptions for G-chat if I'm already in my email, but usually I only turn that on by request. ^^; Sorry!

One thing after another, and it's all so frustrating. I really think that if I were to suddenly break, I probably WOULD just start screaming.

So, today the car stopped working again. God only knows what is wrong this time. She did give us a scare the other day, making a crazy sound like a saw on metal when we started her up, despite having driven her moments before.. But like it mysteriously started, it stopped again. We started it and she sounded fine. This morning, she threatened with that same sound again as Jeremy was leaving for work. He turned the car off right away...and when he started her up again, she was fine.. So you can imagine the bewilderment when he went to leave work to come home for a quick lunch before heading off to the next work... Nothing. She turns over, but doesn't start. What the FUCK, man?!

The financial timing of these events is always terrible, but I still haven't managed to get money together to pay back my mom and step-dad for the money they spent on a new battery.. Now I have to ask for more help. I really hate this. The bill for the battery is plastered to the refrigerator, a reminder every time I walk past of what they have done and my obligation to return the money they shouldn't be out.. Now this again.. And our car is pretty old, by today's standards--what if she can't be fixed this time? What will we do if she won't run again? We can't afford a new car. We can't afford even a used car. The trade-in value would be next to nil.. She isn't worth dick. In fact, I think dick is probably worth more.

Between this and fees for court, the upcoming Mother's Day and my next eye appointment, the next oil change, our upcoming renewal for car insurance.. I already have enough shit to worry about--not to mention our friend is coming to visit, with the worst timing ever, next month... I'm so beyond frustrated that I think I'm becoming insane. I feel like laughing and crying and, meanwhile, am still silently screaming in my head, all at once.. I know shit happens. I know life gives you lemons. I don't need an analogy or to be told that's how it is or any other bullshit. I just want things, just for a while, to go well. I want to get caught up. I want to breathe and not be afraid of the left shoe dropping and unleashing the lions where the bottom should be. I'd like to feel less like shit and more...optimistic. But I can't be. I am beginning to firmly believe the universe forbids me to be positive. Just earlier today I decided to be more positive. I made a financial plan for the rest of the month and found myself thinking..or saying.. I'm not sure, sometimes I talk aloud, but I never really notice when I do it, so it could'a gone either way.. But, yeah, just this morning I was saying to myself that things would be fine for a while, as long as nothing else unexpected happens. Not even an hour later...the car isn't working..

Ahh... I can almost hear my soul screaming with the physical me..

..I am... Exasperated.

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markstewart Apr 10, 2014   Traditional Artist
Thanks for watching, i appreciate it.
seiko Apr 14, 2014  Hobbyist
My pleasure.
xXSnowFrostXx Apr 7, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
thx for liking my kitsune picture:)
seiko Apr 8, 2014  Hobbyist
You're welcome.
Labeculas-Dollhouse Apr 2, 2014  Hobbyist Photographer
Thanks a lot for the :+fav:!
seiko Apr 6, 2014  Hobbyist
You are very welcome.
OtakuEC Mar 28, 2014  Professional General Artist
seiko Mar 29, 2014  Hobbyist
No problem. ^^
Travis-Clarke Mar 27, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Thanks again for another +fav Seiko! Hug

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If you like my work be sure to like my Facebook page! It would be very appreciated and help tremendously Heart 
seiko Mar 28, 2014  Hobbyist
You're very welcome.

Your pieces like these, I find them a little mind blowing. When I look at them, it isn't one feeling or thought I get to know I like them. They pull me in and suck my breath away. That kind of art doesn't happen much, so for me, it's a pleasure.

Ah, I avoid Facebook and such like the plague. ^^; Sorry.
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